If you'd remember

Today's the day, the day we were together. Just thinking back aint going to help. Seeing others happily with their boyf, i'm just enving them. Seriously, i dont know why did i did it. I'm so useless. I placed the hat just next to my bed, hoping that one day it'll happen. Apparently, i dont think so. I've saw you today. And got so happy, but once you stepped out, i felt a knife just slashing through my heart, i'm really lost, really confuse. My inbox doesnt have any msg today. Not even one. You dont have feelings for me, yup, i understand. I'm trying to endure, trying not to think. I'm just tearing up.

I promised to be happy, why am i not? Today was quite average. Basketball after school and slacked with vivian and xinyi (heart). We were like random talking and screaming. Went home after that, and i'm shag. I've blisters due to basketball. Hm, i have training later at 10pm. I feel like dying. So, so shag :/