Pride comes before a fall,

Hi guys, recently, i'm was told to be aggresive and violent. I guess it was due to my mood swings lately. Rather out of mood and tired for no particular reason. And if i'm violent to like any of you guys, i'm really sorry, very very sorry. I didnt quite know it until _____ told me. Yes, i'm very sorry.

I'll head on to todays update.
I'm dissapointed and angry with myself. Not only i couldnt control my emotions, i was dissapointed with my marks. I've been studying like crazy and even make it a point to close my blog so i could concentrate on my exams. By that, i was hoping to get a better grade. Instead, i was owned flat by people who never really study and i was super shocked. I couldnt get over with it. As in, I've put in alot of effort and i've just met their standards. Doesnt that mean i have to put more effort just to be better than them in their grades? Mrs yap, told us all that our IQ was about the same. At first, i thought it was quite true, but just then today, i realised not. I have a lower IQ, i guess i've been having to high expectations of myself or i thought to highly of myself. Its such a disgrace. I'm really moodless.

Anyway, I'm glad that Vivian, Melissa and I had been chosen among the 100 over plus people to go through the trial test with our gun weapons. I hope we'll make it together to the next round. I guess theres nothing else i can say. I hope i'll change, i just need time.


Strong in the outside, weak and soft in the inside. I guess no one knows me. My life's in a mess at eleven, i feel very hopeless deep down, i couldnt get over the thing that happen before.